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November 8th, 2005

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October 28th, 2005

01:59 pm - doing ok i guess :( cheated the last few days kinda - having 1 shake a day with 1 normal meal, and a lot of tea/coffee. Today for lunch I had some chinese vegetables and tofu, yesterday i had a couple of vege sushi hand rolls, and the day before I had a tandoori chicken wrap thing. Not too bad, but still a few cals over what I would get from just the shakes+veges alone. I'm holding at around 98.5kg at the moment it seems, so I'm not losing all that quickly. The weekend is here and I'm sure I'll have a couple of drinks - I guarantee I will tomorrow anyway, as I'm meeting a bunch of people at a belgian beer cafe. After a couple of heavy beers, I imagine the wurst will start to look appealing. If I overdo it this weekend I'll hit the gym sunday night. I'm still paying $18/week for membership and I haven't gone once since I started this diet. Current Mood: blah

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October 26th, 2005

10:50 am - still 98.3 No weight loss overnight.. oh well. I was ravenously hungry yesterday - I'm not too sure about this hoodia stuff. Doesn't seem to be having much effect. Didn't stick to the shakes entirely yesterday - had a shake for breakfast, veges for lunch and some vege soup for dinner. My partner decided to get KFC and I had her bread roll, which was sugary and disgusting. I hate KFC, its by far the worst fast food you can buy (even worse than mcdonalds, these days. At least at maccas you can get a low-fat tandoori chicken wrap or something). I don't know why my partner keeps eating this crap. Every time I get in her car there's an empty mcdonalds or kfc wrapper on the seat or whatever, it's horrible. I hope she's not deliberately eating this stuff to rub it in my face that I can't eat. Current Mood: lethargic

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October 25th, 2005

10:18 am - hooooooooodia my hoodia arrived yesterday and its a 20:1 extract, in a 10g jar. After a bit of research I found out the recommended dosage is 50mg. How the hell am I supposed to measure out 50mg from a 10g jar? After contacting the guy who sent it to me, I found out that it's very safe and can't harm me even in massive doses, so I should just eyeball it. I took about 1/4 teaspoon with some water and it didn't seem to have much effect. I had my first shake of the day about 2 hours later. I'll try a larger dose today. Down to 98.3 kg now, or thereabouts. Losing, slowly. Current Mood: energetic

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October 24th, 2005

11:07 am - still losing, slowly Yesterday, after a rather long and depleting saturday night out with my mates, I decided I need to eat some breakfast to help with my hangover. The idea of drinking a shake was making me feel much much worse. So I had a half of a club sandwich and a few chips. I felt full all day long, and at dinner time my partner wanted to order Indian. I grabbed some dal, and ate about a cup of it (240cals). I still managed to lose 1kg or so over the weekend, even with the eating and boozing :) Down to 98.9 now. Sticking to the shakes today. I feel great. Current Mood: bouncy

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October 22nd, 2005

01:31 pm - alcohol :( *sigh* another night of drinking. I'm guessing (haven't worked it out on fitday yet) that I took in over 1000kj yesterday, maybe even 1500! That's awful. The ephedra is a strange herb, it didn't really get me buzzing much more than a couple of coffees, but it did keep me awake until about 2am, and it made me immune to alcohol. Well pretty much, once the ephedra wore off I felt REALLY drunk all of a sudden and had to drink heaps of water to stop from passing out! Amazing how strongly alcohol affects you when you haven't been eating! NO ALCOHOL TONIGHT! SHAKES AND VEGES ONLY! If I want to alter my consciousness I'll figure something else out, that doesn't involve calories! Argh I wish I had more willpower. I feel really shitty today. Current Mood: pissed off

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October 21st, 2005

01:14 pm - damn damn damn So yesterday I had only 1 shake, and 3 beers (argh!). It's very very hard going out with friends and not eating or drinking anything. In fact it's downright impossible for me. Today I feel terrible for breaking my promise to myself! But anyway, my ephedra has arrived and I'm enjoying some nice ma huang tea. It's now 2pm and I haven't eaten anything today, and don't feel the slightest bit hungry :) Current Mood: bouncy

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October 20th, 2005

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October 19th, 2005

08:46 pm - day 8.. easy well it's definitely getting easier to deal with the hunger, but I'm still cheating and not sticking to the shakes. Today I've only had 1 shake, a few pieces of vege sushi, a small piece of steak, some bok choy, mushrooms and a few pieces of ham (geez). Luckily I'm at 612 cals for the day or so, according to fitday. As long as I stop eating now and don't eat anything else for the rest of the night I'll be fine :) Current Mood: amused

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October 18th, 2005

11:01 pm - well i cheated again sorta I guess it will be difficult to stick to the shakes program if I'm out doing stuff - tonight I had a work meeting thing until like 9pm and didn't get to have any lunch or dinner, so I was starving and kinda weak when I left the office. Walked around the city for a while but couldn't find anything suitable at that time of night (unless I sat down in a restaurant - too tired to do that). So I went with the healthiest fast food I could think of, a 6 inch vege sub at subway. So for the day, I'm a little under in terms of cals, but definitely over in terms of carbs (100g of carbs for the day! argh). Let's hope it doesn't make too much of a difference to my progress. Maybe tomorrow I'll skip a shake or two and load up on some good protein. Current Mood: tired

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10:03 am - i'm a loser Well looks like I lost a little weight yesterday or overnight, but measuring weight in the morning is deceptive (due to dehydration? no idea). Anyway I weighed in at 99.4 this morning which is like 1.3 kgs lower than my weight yesterday afternoon. The hunger thing is getting easier, but thats probably due to the huge amount of caffeine I drink during the daytime :) I'm trying to get some hoodia capsules and ephedra herb from some mates to help with the appetite suppression. They both work really well - ephedra works so well it's actually illegal in this country ;) Current Mood: devious

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October 17th, 2005

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12:57 pm - cheater! geez So last night I went to a friends place after having my evening "meal" of green vegetables. When I got there, they decided they were going to order pizzas. So I managed to sit through an hour of watching them eat pizza, while I sipped on a beer (tsk!) When I got home, I found my partner had ALSO ordered pizza for dinner, and it was sitting in the fridge. Well temptation got the better of me at around 10pm and I grabbed a piece. Oh god it tasted so good, but I felt very very guilty afterwards, not to mention a little bloated. So this morning, unsurprisingly, I found I hadn't lost any weight overnight. I'm still holding steady at around 101kg. Today I'm working and hopefully won't be exposed to any temptations. It's definitely getting easier to go without food, but weekend temptations are getting the better of me. Luckily I'm on day 6 now (monday) and have a normal busy week ahead of me. Food should not be a priority! Current Mood: disappointed

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October 16th, 2005

12:38 pm - cheater! hehe, well last night was fun. After having a glass of wine I was tipsy already, so my judgement was a little impaired. I had 2 glasses of wine and 2 gin+sodas at the pub. I also cheated by having a big salad with tuna in it rather than my third shake+veges. And this morning rather than having my breakfast shake, I made another big salad with tomato (tsk!) and beetroot (TSK!) and a little fatfree mayo (TSK TSK!). Still, even though I'm cheating I feel pretty good about it.. at least I'm not cheating with Burger King or something. Weighing in today at 100kg even! Pretty happy with that. I didn't weigh myself before I started this program but I'm guessing based on day2 weight that I was about 104 or 105kg. So I've definitely lost a few kilos so far! Current Mood: cheerful

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October 15th, 2005

10:59 am - cheater! Well a couple of hours after my delicious steak last night I succumbed to the urge and had a beer. Not sure how many calories that is, but it's not good. Day four and I feel pretty good. That steak is probably gonna work its way through my system pretty soon. Hmm... better go easy on the fibre today :) Oh and I weighed 97.2kgs first thing this morning. After having a shower I weighed 101.2 kg.. so I'm holding steady. Current Mood: cheerful

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October 14th, 2005

07:34 pm - difficult periods Well I've figured out that the most difficult times for me are between 2pm and 4pm, and after 8-9pm at night. I really need to space my shakes and veges out so that I cover off these periods over the next few days, otherwise I can see myself slipping. Speaking of slipping, tonight I decided to forego one of my shakes and have a small piece of blade steak, with some broccolli and mushrooms. I worked out the calorie value - i'll be about 100kj over by doing this, but I'm not adding any extra carbs and very very little fat. So I think that's ok, my ketosis induction (or whatever) won't be slowed up too much. And the plus side is, as I've been a vegetarian for the last few months, even a small piece of steak makes me feel REALLY full, and I'll probably stay full for the rest of the night :) Boy oh boy did that steak go down well tonight. I've bought a bunch of mixed lettuce leaves, cucumbers and some atkins-friendly salad dressing (5kj, 0 fat, 0 carbs per serve) for snacking. I think that a big bowl of lettuce/cucumber and dressing will only work out to about 20kj! Perfect snack. I'm off to watch Harold and Kumar Go To White Castle. Hopefully I won't get a craving for a burger. Current Mood: full

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09:01 am - day 3 begins - friday Well according to the scales I weigh 100.3 kg this morning. Is it possible I lost 1.7 kgs overnight? :) This morning I'm going to follow the advice of the guy yesterday who told me to put 1 litre of water in a blender, along with an optifast sachet, lots of ice, some instant coffee, a sachet of splenda and LOTS of fibre. Like 5 teaspoons of it. He told me that it would be very filling and also very 'cleansing' and that I should make sure I'm near a toilet all day. I cheated last night and had a small tin of tuna late in the evening, around 300kj. I felt bad afterwards, but it definitely filled me up. Evenings are the hardest time of all - in fact I think I might try to schedule my shakes so I have one left to drink after 8pm. Current Mood: cheerful

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October 13th, 2005

09:35 pm - fibre! on the advice of some guy online who I just met (and who has lost 20+kg on optifast so far) I tried putting instant coffee in my vanilla shake and WOW - iced coffee! it's 100x more palatable now :) Also, he suggested buying some metamucil/fibre and putting a few teaspoons in each shake, to help fill me up for longer without adding significant calories. The brand of fibre I have says to use no more than 3/4 of a teaspoon per day at first, to give your body time to adjust. I've already had 3 teaspoons of it today so I hope I don't regret it in the morning. What are the side effects of too much fibre I wonder? God I hope I don't find out. Day 2 is over, and it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. No headaches, no real weakness or anything.. just cranky mood swings and hunger pangs. Maybe tomorrow will be the real test. Current Mood: good Current Music: Pendulum - Studio Mix July 2003

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04:58 pm - scales! so I just bought a set of cheap bathroom scales and weighed myself (not the best time of day to do so - considering I've just drank about 1L of water) According to this I'm 102kg, with a body fat % of 31 and total water percentage %40. These are awful figures! Although I'd assumed I weighed around 108-110kg so I'm a bit happier about that. Maybe I've lost 5kg in the first 48 hours on this diet? :) Current Mood: apathetic

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01:29 pm well it seems that 2 glasses of vodka and diet coke will come to about 120 cals, whereas two glasses of red wine will be about 180. Also, due to the way the body processes alcohol, these calories will be burned off BEFORE calories from fat. Luckily I'm on a low fat diet! So it would seem that if I wanted to have 4-5 standard drinks on the weekend, that would be fine, as long as I don't make any other special exceptions like eating a high-calorie meal. Which I was planning on doing sometime this weekend also. Goddamn, I hope I have the willpower to get through it. Today is sucking pretty bad so far. No headaches but I'm VERY cranky and kinda tired. On the plus side, my umm, "digestive system" feels pretty good :) Current Mood: cranky

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